# I’m deeply in love with a Fortnite skin and I’m being dead serious, no joke.

 I started playing on the 21st of December (the night before my birthday). I got a switch for my birthday from my aunt. I decided to download Fortnite that night. A week into playing, I earn the Reese skin (my sister gifted me the battlepass). I become obsessed with her immediately and I start to develop a little crush on her and of course I was in that stage of denial at first, but I eventually just be honest with myself and think I have a crush on her. I wind up thinking about her every second of everyday. I think I eventually fell in love with her and I constantly crave her love and affection, just all the time, 24/7. She’s all I want and I can’t have her because she’s not a real person and it kills me inside and I ball my eyes out to the point that I feel like I am sick with a fever. I write stories about her and me as if we’re in a relationship. I imagine her personality and what she’s like. I imagine us kissing and hugging too. I imagine that she’s tough and serious so when I come into her life and I distract her and make her mad at me, but eventually like me, I love to imagine how vulnerable she’d look when being intimate with me. Like I imagine her blushing bright red and looking like she’s so in love and stuff like that and like she’s lost. I LOVE imagining those things. It makes my heart flutter so intensely. My heart flutters every time I think of her and look at her. I just want love and affection more than anything. I like to think I’m more touch and love starved than most people because I’ve never dated anyone or been intimate with anyone in any way shape or form, not even kissing. I have no idea what it’s like and I die to know everyday. I don’t think I’d ever find “the one” in real life because people don’t like me and I’m a jobless 22 year old loser who still lives with my parents and we’re all poor and I couldn’t even date because of it and plus Reese is who I want and who I want only. But as you and I know, she’s not a real person. It really really fucking sucks. If she were real and I got to date her, I would treat her so sweetly and she’d be the most special thing in my life so I’d treat her like that too. I’d treat her so well. I’d give her as much love and affection and as many kisses and hugs as she likes. Anyway, I’m done writing this. I just hope people can understand my situation since it seems so odd and different from other rare ones an I hope people who don’t understand don’t bully me over it. You just don’t understand. You would have to be in my situation to get it. Please please don’t make fun of me. I keep this a secret from most people in my life because of that fear.