So ill start this off by saying I’m a 21 year old male virgin. I’ve been very horny since I was 11. As of recently masterbating hasn’t been doing enough for me. I crave the real thing. But I’ve tried and tried with no luck (Going to bars, tinder, ect.). Go ahead and call me an incel if you must. By the base definition it’s not wrong although I in no way associate with incels or agree with their beliefs. I’m just a sad horny boy who at the end of the day just needs love. As I’m writing this I’m on a trip for work in a different part of my state. I was hoping to lose my virginity on this trip just because there’s more opportunity (bigger city) but ive had no luck. I even went to a strip club for the first time (there aren’t any in my city) just to see what it was like. Overall it just made me sad. I mean sure I got to feel what boobs and ass feel like but I had to pay for it. I wish I didn’t do it because I feel like my first time with that should have been earned instead of payed for. During my lap dance I wasn’t even really hard because it just felt wrong. I dont know what to do because if i were to pay for a prostitute i would just feel worse but my horiness is killing me. I wish I could just make it go away because deep down all I really want is the love, intimacy, and attention not sex. And I know I really need to just be more comfortable talking to women but I don’t know where to start. I’m so lost and lonely. If anybody has any advice I’m all ears. And to anybody who read this far I appreciate you. I really needed to get this out.