Sorry for bad broken English, I’m destroyed emotionally and rationally.
ALSO I’m really sorry that this might cause me to look like an asshole as people are saying in the comments, it’s just that, I’m so confused and i didn’t expect a suicidal girl from a psych ward for my first date, i just wasn’t ready for it

As my thoughts comes back to normal i will edit the post fixing it.

So let’s start.

I was anxious for my first date, like super anxious, i even did a post on another subreddit showing how happy and anxious i was, I mean, it’s my first date lol

So, i requested an Uber, the Uber got me from my home and it would get her from her home too, then we’d go to the shopping. Until there everything was going great, until we arrived on her home.

At first glance I noticed her hair wasn’t blue anymore as I expected from how I knew her, it was gray, but that’s wasn’t a big problem, i just found her clothes weird but I didn’t care that much for that.
Then she got into the car. Her arms were full of cuts, her neck too. At that exact moment my stomach dropped, and i was thinking “oh dear she’s suicidal! People on the shopping will think I did the cuts! Or even worse!” (This because i didn’t want people to think that I hurt her, people got it wrong in the comments section)

In that moment my date was already ruined.

Then we got to the shopping. I asked her about her ex, and she told me why she finished with him, until there everything was fine, UNTIL her ex-boyfriend started a phone call with her, and they started chatting and discussing right by my side (REALLY LOUD), and then they stopped discussing and finished the call with no more anger, as if they were coming back to their normal relationship status.

So i was talking with her, and she told me she has been suicidal from 4 years or more, she doesn’t go to school, smokes marijuana and she attempted suicide these days (at that point I was already destroyed completely annihilated, at a point that I wasn’t even caring anymore), and I decided to ask her if she (a minor, I’m a minor too) ever had sex with him. And she told me multiple times, and that it was good (bye bye feelings).

Then she told me that she smoked marijuana right before the date, and that she brought marijuana and showed me (YES SHE BROUGHT MARIJUANA TO A FUCKING MALL) and she wanted to smoke it right in front of me, i obviously didn’t let her smoke it as she wanted to smoke in a fucking shopping. Then she started talking nonsense. At this point I was fucked

So we decided to go eat a sandwich, and oh Lord, everybody was looking but at the same time avoiding their eyes, like a quick look, i couldn’t help but simply notice and feel like they were blaming me for her cuts (like if I literally did them, that’s what they thought from seeing me with her).

After that I decided to go home, and she asked me to left her at her boyfriend’s home, and i was like “wtf didn’t they just finish?” Then she told me they are back now. And i was paying the Uber to leave her at her fucking boyfriend’s home after a date with me.

So i got home and for anyone wondering what’s the sense of this, I already replied in the comments, it’s because i do psychologic treatment in the same place as her, the differences between me and her is that she passes the whole day there while I just go to the psychologist normally, i just didn’t want people to know that I do my treatments in there (I’m ashamed for some reason lol)

Oh man I’m so broke I can’t even describe this in words correctly, I’m just, so destroyed in feelings, shame, and everything.

But in general she’s a good person, even tho my feelings are totally completely destroyed

TlDr: went on a date with a beautiful chick, turns out she wasn’t beautiful, was full of suicidal cuts, was crazy, and she came from a psych ward

For anyone thinking that this history is fake, i even took a picture with her. I can do everything to prove that it’s real. Just ask me.
Edit: guys pls stop asking for the picture in my pm I won’t share it with everyone on the internet, just ask something you are in doubt lol