Ok, yesterday I started to actually sniff white out so I can feel a bit high thinking I’d make myself feel a bit better after going through stressful days and things have been hard on me. I know it’s stupid, but I think that’s the only way I can try to do something I know I’m not suppose to and feel a bit better. When i actually got high I felt ok, but then started feeling like s**t after. Now I can’t seem to stop myself because I see the white out and just open it and sniff just so I can try to get the same feeling again (I don’t know why, even though a friend tried talking me out of doing this since I can eventually damage myself since I might be going through some depression and not doing anything about it or tell anyone). It seems addictive, I like the smell, and I’m afraid it’ll eventually get worse and then I’ll really get ill and I can imagine what my parents would react to it once they find out and all..

Again I know it’s stupid but I really want to stop. How can I? Even if I don’t have anything around to get high or damage myself how can I stop the thought of it?