I just want to go fucking crazy, end this all, kill everyone around me, just fucking get as much attention as possible, tiktok it, twitter it, everywhere post it all over social media, and fucking cut myself, burn myself, just fucking incinerate myself publicly so it can cause an uproar, label it as racist uproar, discrimination, scummery, of these bitch feminist teachers, refusing to even teach me in MY FUCKING AMERICAN FUCKING EDUCATION!!!! MY FUCKING RIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!! MY FUCKING RIGHTS!!!!!! AND PUT EVERY DOCUMENT, FUCKED UP PEICE OF SHIT, AND VIDEO, TAPE, RECORDINGO F EVERYONE WHO FUCKED WITHM EI NMY FUCKING LIFE AND ID FUCKED UP SHIT TO ME! TO FUCKING PAY!!!!!!!!!! TO HURT!!! TO GET FUCKING HURT! TO HURT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IMCLENCING MY TEETH MY CHEST IS POUDNING I AM OVERWEIGHT IWANT OT FUCKING KILL MYSELF. IM A HUMAN FUCKNIG BEING!!!!!!!!!! YOIU DONT IAMGINE THE PAIN I AM FUCKING GOING THROUGH!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My teachers are fucking ignoring me. My fucking education is ignoring me, they’re not fucking helping me, I feel fucking depressed and WANT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF. THIS IS WORSE THAN RACISM. THIS IS POLITICAL. ITS FUCKED UP!!! FUCKED UP!!!!!!! THEY WONT HELP ME AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SICK OF ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO KILL EVERY HUMAN ON THIS FUCKING EARTH. I WANT TO SEE WHAT THEIR BLOOD LOOKS LIKE. THEIR ORGANS. I WANT TO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF THEM. ALL OF THEM. EVERYONE. EVERYTHING. I WANT TO KILL ALL. FUCKING EVERYTHING. NO ONE IS BETTER THAN ME. YOU THINK YOU’RE BETTER THAN ME? ILL FUCKING KILL YOU. This has gone too fucking far. I’ve been here for five fucking years. I’ve been doing this for five fucking years of my life. It was the end of May that I almost found a girl who was that close to seeing me in real life, I fucked it all up, fucked up my only fucking chance I could ever fucking have after waiting all that fucking time. True happiness isn’t from in, it’s from without. I have fucked my life up so much from doing this, there is nothing left, I can try as hard as I fucking can, be as kind, non-judgmental and give every fucking chance there is, but people still treat me like I don’t fucking love myself. And they think because of that, they can treat me like an absolute fucking piece of shit dirt. I’ve been through so much fucking shit, more than any of you combined. I wanted a girlfriend from Maryland to see in real life, but this constant fuckery I’ve had enough of, females deciding yeah let me take it long, yeah let me give you friendship, yeah, this that this that and this and that. What am I suppose to do? Judge every around me and be a lonley fucking piece of shit? It feels like every time, I’m fucking blocked, fucking ghosted, fucking left, FUCKING ABANDONED, FUCKING IGNORED. That I am back to zero. That I am back to fucking zero. There is so many fucking reasons I do the things I do and I am fucking glad about it. This isn’t fucking right. This is fucked up. No one should fucking have the decency to take advantage of someone who tries harder than them, who does more than them AND FUCKING GIVES EVERYTHING THETY FUCKING CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t be myself is it? Is that it? People cant me be fucking myself. I’m going to be here until next year, I can see it, another year is going to pass, and I am going to still fucking be on Omegle, you’re going to see my fucking message on Omegle within a year probably, probably, fucking probably, I am going to turn a year older again, December is going to pass, what am I suppsoe to do, let this fucking rage build up, until I lose control. Lose my fucking mind. Lose my fucking cognitive function and kill myself? And fucking kill myself without even fucking knowing. WITHOUT EVEN. FUCKING KNOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’ve ignored all the dangers, I’ve ignored all the fucking hate, I’ve ignored all the fucking signs I am in such a fucked up place. I have to do something. This has gone to far. It’s you people, there is something fucking wrong with you people, and you females who refuse or don’t need shit, I don’t care what the fuck you are. If you can’t even just meet up in real life, don’t even use the fucking internet then. I’ve gotten so mentally fucked up from this shit. People don’t believe me the internet is all I have, I am trying to escape from something, the pain and they don’t understand how serious I am when I feel like killing myself. But they say the same shit, no one gives fuck in this world. In this world, where you say stuff like that, everyone, all people, automatically fucking take your right to life, existence and fucking validity away. I’m not going to kill myself. I am afraid my concious itself is going to. That doesnt matter though. Don’t fucking message me if you cannot fucking get a clue. Kik: seriousactually